And it begins...

Well, today my emotional and mental state isn't doing so well.  I am a complete mess.  I was hoping this wouldn't happen until tomorrow, but to no avail.  It's so subconscious, it's hard to stop.  This really sucks :(  I don't want to feel like this.  I just can't stop crying.  It's completely irrational.  Hopefully my prayers will be answered.  I need some strength and peace to get through this.