Brady's Due Date

Today is Brady's due date, and yesterday was 3 months from when he was born. I have been wondering how I would feel today, and it's actually been a good day. I feel very at peace with the situation. Paul and I are going to go visit Brady tomorrow and read another chapter or 2 from the book. It will be really nice to visit him again, but I know it will be emotional. I still talk to him every night before I go to bed and thank him for being such a blessing in my life. 2010 really was a great year because I got to have Brady. Even though the pregnancy didn't end like I would have wanted, I am so thankful that I had him in my life. I wouldn't change anything we did at all.

We are now trying to get pregnant again, and we are looking forward to another pregnancy. We are hoping it happens quickly, but only God knows when it will happen, so we will just enjoy trying and hope for the best. I know it might be an emotional and tough process, but I think I am actually handling it a lot better this time around, so I'm thankful for that and I attribute that to Brady's influence on me. He has been so good for me in so many ways. What a little miracle :)

I am really looking forward to the Christmas holiday. I actually don't think it will be upsetting like I was originally afraid of. Brady has 2 ornaments, one from me and Paul and one from Elise, which is super sweet. We will be getting him a stocking too. I think it will be really nice to think about him on Christmas and be thankful that we knew him.